If you think someone is cool, tell them! You'll try to talk, but she'll ignore the statement and shift the conversation elsewhere.
I can guarantee that people identify you as a narcissist: self-centered, jealous, insensitive, and uncaring.
If so, you have to realize that people will soon stop asking if you keep rejecting them.
At the very least to try to share in their joy.
We barely connected in any meaningful way and had no real interactions beyond the surface level.
You have so much personality.
You see more to life.
Be the breath of fresh air that every friendship needs.